My heart is hurting

Today has been one of the hardest days I have been through. Charlie (my baby) is on a plane back to the states to live with his dad...I say baby..he is almost 20 but he's my baby, this photo was taken minutes before he walked through security at the airport, wow what a rush of feelings that was...but I held back the tears...then my mobile phone rang "mum...I am bored and there's no place to sit and they haven't posted the gate yet....we chatted a bit and then we hung up..both knowing we would speak in a short time again...ok....a few more times....the last call was "Hi again.....I am on the plane....oh, I said...(felt like I had hit a brick wall) I said "will you call again before you take off??????? ......he said....no probably not...omg...this is really it....my baby is about to fly.....slam....the tears wouldn't stop!! Charlie, I and his step dad have had a rough couple of years....and I have shed buckets of tears...but after being a mum with kids in the house for 30 years..and knowing they are ALL grown and flew the nest...DAMNNN its hard to accept this....its gonna feel so strange not being the one he depends on anymore...not being the one he gets an attitude with, but then I am looking forward to having an adult relationship with him as I have with the rest of my son's and I hope once again I am forgiven any mistakes in parenting I have made...I guess time will tell. I did my best..thats all I could do...and the love I have for my sons is endless and very precious! My son's are a great bunch of guys! ok....I have added a photo of the rest of my son's too...a family photo! Love and light to all who read this. :)

Mum has arrived

Hello everyone! Well my mum is here and settling in for her month long stay, the time already is going by fast and there's so much I wanna show her in between working, packing for our move, and moving...ahhhh but we will get there! Here are a couple first moment photo's that Alan took of mum and I at the airport when she first arrived. We are hoping the weather gets better as it would be nice to show her some of England in the warmth of spring! Love and Light to all who read my mindmumbles.

Its been a busy time

Hello to all who happens into my mindmumbles...it has been a very busy month for me. I started my new job and ended my old. The lovely ladies at my old job threw me a going away do and bought me £30.00 of craft shop vouchers and two angel statues for my garden..or wherever else I choose to put them...but they are so precious! The craft vouchers are awaiting the arrival of the Crop o dile Big Bite. Unless I find something sooner I want. lol Another item keeping us busy...Alan and I have been busily phoning and going to see rental properties, well last week we heard of one and after I got done working we decided to take a drive by it just to see where it was exactly...well I was hooked from the first look, I couldn't set up a viewing fast enough, we knew from that first outside look that we wanted it. Well the day as come and gone and we have our viewing of it, we will hopefully be moving in before the end of April! We are just awaiting approval from the property owner. So its biting nails time until we get the call. :/ Last but surely NOT least, my Mother is arriving on Thursday to spend the month with us, its her first visit to the UK and also assures she will not be alone on the 1st anniversary of my fathers death. I am looking forward to her visit as she and I have not had the opportunity to spend quality time together as adults since my sons were babies! Love and Light to all who take the time to read my mindmumbles. I appreciate all of you and your lovely comments..they mean alot to me.

On a Roll

My mojo is back in full swing with a little prompting! I scraplifted a sketch from: http://www.mojoholder.typepad.com/ the March 14th sketch. This is of myself with my first and only (so far) Grandson, he was only a couple weeks old in the photo but is now 6 years old....so to say the least its an oldish photo! But one I really like. :) Love and Light to all who read this.

OK....as promised here is the card I made for my son for his Birthday...I couldn't put it up here before he recieved it because he cleverly found my blog on the WWW! This was for his 21st birthday..hence the 21 and the bottle of his favourite tipple "jagermeister".